Caught up in the ‘doing’ again

Resentment. Anger. P*ssed off. Tired. Oh, so tired. Directionless. Confused.

These emotions are not only echoes of the past but also still come up from time to time. Yes, even now – after doing all the personal development work, I have done. As much as I don’t like admitting it…I still have a version of getting angry at the world. It’s completely different to how I used to be p*ssed…but the diluted version still happens. And that’s it really – all emotions still get felt…but do you have to stay in them for long periods. Nope.

Recently, these emotions had been floating to the surface.

I’d gotten caught up in the DOING actions.
What needs to be DONE? When can I DO that? That thing over there needs DOING.
And I tell you what; there is ALWAYS something to DO.

I’ll repeat that…mainly for myself. There is ALWAYS things to be DONE. It’s seemingly never-ending. In fact, I am not sure I would know who I am when I did get to the end of the list – so in writing this…I realise that I add to the list as it’s easier than working out who I really am.

So, if you’ve read this far… let’s flip it to you.

There are always things to be DONE. You realise it’s never-ending. Would or could you ever get to the end of the list? If you did, then what would happen? Who would you BE?

That’s a scary thought, so you keep adding to the list because that is easier than working it all out.

I know that when I get caught up in all the DOING. I forget who I really am. I lose myself. I get confused. I get resentful and angry. I feel like it’s all work and no play. The DOING is exhausting.

And I guess that’s why I am writing this. Because, my friend, it doesn’t have to be this way. There are better ways to live. Better ways to process, create and BE.

BE. Do. HAVE.

Focus on the BE.
Who do you want to BE?

Then BE that. If you can’t remember or work out who you need to BE, look around and borrow aspects of others you admire. It’s ok; it’s not copying.

Then, the DOING actions come in. You won’t need to worry about what to DO when you are BEING.

Then, you HAVE. You have the result, the outcome, the thing.

As a human being, I still make this mistake. I focus on the HAVE so much!…and not who I am BEING.

Yet, super easy to fall into.

Emma x