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So I am sitting here thinking about how I could do a thousand things. There is always a thousand things to be done isn’t there? Always a list to follow. A list to make and a list to shove back into the drawer. There’s also another thousand things that I could do. I could do…
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It doesn’t matter what I do. Its not enough. I push and push and yet I feel like I am getting no-where. In fact, its like I am going backwards. Hurtling backwards into an effin’ hole that I can’t see an end to. I am tired. I am over it. I am sick of trying.…
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Life is funny ol’ thing hey? You really don’t know when it will change in a moment. A snap of the fingers, a heart beat, a breath. It can change, just like that. Good and bad. The feeling of losing someone. Your life changes at that moment. The feeling of finding someone. You life changes…
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I was wrong. I have been wrong and I will probably keep being wrong somewhere in my life. What was I wrong about? Gosh, where do I start? Before I get into that, let me tell you a bit of a back story (not a justification either). More of a ‘filler in’… For years I…
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I feel guilt. I feel guilt. I feel like I could do better. I feel like I am a failure as a mum. I know its not just me. I used to even say that ‘guilt started upon conception’. (Yes I drank a whole bottle of wine the night before I found out I was…
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I have been flat out. Super busy. Head down, bum up. Pushing, pushing, doing, doing and doing some more. Come up for air? Who the feck has time for that? No time. No time. I feel like the rabbit in Alice in Wonderland. Keep going. Just a bit more. The pressure only builds as the…
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Hearing the alarm and rolling over with a sigh. That slow recognition that its morning and I feel like I didn’t sleep at all. I can hear the familiar sounds of the house and the birds starting to sing. I feel that heavy body feeling and I sink deeper into my blankets. This aches. That…
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I didn’t want to write anything today. I procrastinated about finding the charger on the laptop and wondering if I needed another cuppa before I was ‘ready’. I looked for distractions like clearing the kitchen, washing the towels and even contemplating attacking the cluttered garage (knowing that I wouldn’t return for probably days). I checked…
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#selfishisthenewblack   Definition of selfish:   1. devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one’s own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others. 2. characterised by or manifesting concern or care only for oneself: selfish motives.   Hearing the word itself – what do you feel?   Guilt, negativity, sadness? What else?…
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